A glimpse into the Mind of Adam Sill
"Never forget what you are. For surely the rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you." -Tyrion Lannister
Showing posts with label Faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Faith. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Preemptive Faith

Sin. A touchy subject, yes? But perhaps the easiest thing to talk about. One of the many paradoxes that bewilder the human race. What is right, and what is wrong? This question has plagued philosopher's minds for the past thousands of years. The answers will vary depending upon the background of the individual. As most of you know, I am a Christian. The things I write on this blog will primarily edify Christians, however any non-christian who stumbles upon my website might find it equally as intriguing.
Sin is the separation of our very beings from God. When we choose to fulfill our Earthly desires over the desires of our Father in Heaven, we are sinning. But it is so confusing sometimes. Often times, it is hard to distinguish between what is sin and what isn't. For any person who finds themselves in such a situation, the best advice I can give is that they delve into scripture, as well as communicate with the Father as often as possible. If you do not do these things, I would expect the only way to discover if something is sinful in nature is to experience it. Become separated from Christ.
Becoming separated from Christ is perhaps the hardest thing than anyone can experience. And I would definitely advise that one would take whatever measures necessary to refrain from becoming separated from Him.
But what I wish to talk about in this Blog is not the difference between right and wrong, but what to do once you have made that distinction. If you know that something is wrong, is it okay to just experience it anyway? That way we can learn from the experience and embrace our youth at the same time.
Recently I have encountered a situation in which a young teenager, who wishes to expand their faith and strengthen their walk with God, found themselves desiring certain aspects of the World over their Heavenly Father. As I talked with this student, they brought up several questions that I would like to address.

1. In my discussion with this student, they stated that they wanted to postpone their spiritual growth until later in order to have more fun over summer. They thought that going to parties and consuming alcohol just over summer would be okay, because they will not continue to live this way after summer ends. I told the student that it is not okay to drink, especially at such a young age. They responded by saying, "It's not that bad."

Now, in rebuttal to the student's claim, I would like to break down their response. When they say it is not that bad, what am I to make of that? This would first of all show that the student understands that what they are doing is wrong, and sinful by nature. Now, if what they are doing is sinful by nature, then it is safe to say that it is a sin, yes?
Yes. Okay, in James 2:10 it says, "For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all."
What I see in this verse is that it doesn't matter how small the sin may seem, it is equally as evil as all other sins. No sin is greater than another. They all separate you from God. Do not make the mistake of assuming that your sin is special, or that it is better than any other.
Now, if all sins are equal, then there is nothing for this student to compare their sin to. So, it would be permissible for us to remove the "that" from the sentence. What do we get? "It is not bad."
In Romans 13:1-2 it says, "Every person is to be in subjection to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those which exist are established by God. 2 Therefore whoever resists authority has opposed the ordinance of God; and they who have opposed will receive condemnation upon themselves"
Right here it tells us that obeying the laws of the land is a command from God. Now, what is the legal age to drink alcohol in America? That's right, 21. Not 16. Wait 5 more years, then knock yourself out. It is bad to drink before you are 21, because it is illegal.

2. As I continued to talk with this student, they asked me the question, "Why do you want me to change who I am?"
All things were created BY God, FOR God, which means, He desperately wants us to live lives that seek His face, and bring Honor and Glory to His name. Our identity should be found in Christ alone, and nothing else. Then Christ would become Who we are. If anyone finds their identity in anything other than Christ, that is Idolatry, which is also a sin. Look it up, it's in the Ten Commandments. So to answer your question, why do I want you to change who you are; Because a life devoid of Christ is a life that is not worth living.

I wrote a small metaphor or parable... Whatever you want to call it, which I believe fits right in to this particular subject.
There were once two flowers who lived in the woods. They were planted firmly in soil. The soil was fertile, and the flowers were pure. But one flower grew envious as it watched the tall trees reach up to the sky. It too wanted to reach such heights, but the flower thought it impossible for as long as it was planted in the ground, it was stuck. So the flower uprooted itself and the wind blew it away. The wind carried it high above the trees, and it soared above the entirety of the woods. But the wind died down, and the flower came crashing to the ground. Since the flower was no longer planted in the soil, its petals withered, and its color faded to grey. Meanwhile, the other flower which remained firmly planted in the ground, watched the sky day and night, and was determined to one day reach those heights. But it waited patiently. The rain brought water and fed the flower, and the soil allowed the flower to grow taller and taller until eventually it reached higher than the highest tree in the woods. Its petals flourished in the Sun, and its color shone bright for all to see. And the flower was filled with Joy.

God does not hold us back. He is here for us to help us grow. He wants us to reach those heights, He just wants us to do it His way. And as far as I am concerned, He deserves our obedience. Because the last time I checked, He died on the cross for our sins.

He loves us so much, and He wants us to seek Him. If we put Him first in our lives, and if we make Him the foundation of all that we hold dear, then we will succeed in all our endeavors.

Is it okay for us to partake in a sin that we know is wrong just to gain experience? No. It is not okay to partake in any sin under any circumstance.
If you are about to touch a hot stove and your Mother tells you not to touch it, and that it is too hot, you'd have to be an idiot to touch the stove.
Experience may be the greatest teacher, but it is the most brutal one also.

Monday, February 21, 2011

The Fountain

A Short Story by Adam Sill

Brianna charged the fountain in the middle of the vacant, muddy park. Mascara-stained tears ran down here face. She wore dirty, tattered clothes. Her eyes were red and vulnerability and instability were displayed in each step as she strode through the mud and grass. Her hands were clasped into fists as they sat motionless at her sides. When she reached the fountain she dropped to the ground and sat with her legs crossed as she cried. She looked down at her wrists to find the scars of her past mistakes. She fell silent and just sat, staring at her hands. Then she stood up again and screamed at the top of her lunges. She kicked the fountain and and hurt her foot so she fell to the floor once again.
"Okay." she said, "I'm ready."
Then a man walked up to her. He was wearing a white suit, and though he walked through the mud, it did not stain his clothes. He had a loving look imprinted on his face, and his eyes were filled with sympathy. "I have been waiting here for a while." He said. His voice sounded firm and disciplined, but at the same time it was soft and inviting. "Waiting for you to come back here."
"I know." Brianna said, "I know I shouldn't have left."
"Tell me, Brianna," he said, "What happened?"
"You know what happened." She answered
"I know. But do you?"
Brianna looked down at her wrists again. "I thought I was ready. But I wasn't. I thought that you were with me in my heart. I thought that all I had to do was let you take over and I would be okay."
"So you do not know what happened." The man said
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, not only have you failed to make the right decisions, but you fail to understand why you made the wrong decisions in the first place."
"No," she said, "I know why I failed. I know why I have made the wrong decisions. And it's what I just told you!"
"So you are saying I'm wrong?" the man asked.
"I-" Brianna started, but did not know what to say, "I'm sorry."
"I forgive you."
"Then why did I fail?"
"Think." The man said, "Think really hard about it and you will find the answer."
Brianna closed her eyes and thought hard. Millions of thoughts rushed through her mind  and as she read through each one, the man read along until suddenly he said, "Stop. That one." Brianna stopped on the current thought she was reading through, then she spoke.
"I tried to do it on my own."
"Yes." the man said, "I bring you to this fountain to be at peace for a short period of time. So that it can be just the two of us. This fountain is not a place for you to sit for all eternity. You have to leave eventually. I will go with you, but you have to bring me with you."
"How?"  she asked
The man held out his hand and a crystal bowl appeared in his palm. He walked over to the fountain and scooped out some water. "Stand up." he said.
 Brianna did as he said. The man held the bowl over her head. Brianna looked up at the crystal bowl and stepped back away from the man
"No." the man said, "Trust me."
Brianna hesitated but eventually stepped back underneath the bowl. The man poured the water over Brianna's head and it washed over her entire body. She felt free and refreshed. When she looked down she saw that she was now wearing a beautiful white dress. She looked at her wrists to find that the scars had vanished. She looked up at the man's warm face and smiled. "This is how I want to stay." she said.
"Good." the man answered, "Whenever you become stained by darkness, I want you to pour this water over your body and you will be forgiven and freed of everything." The man held out his other hand and another crystal bowl appeared. He dipped both bowls into the fountain, scooping out as much water as possible. He then welded the two bowls together forming a crystal ball filled with the fountain water. He handed it to Brianna. "Keep this with you at all times. If you do this, your life will be prosperous. And remember, I am always with you, all you have to do is look for me.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Man of God















I once had walked in your holy shoes.
I tried so hard to represent you
I was filled with joy and glee
Because I was Innocent and Free.

But when when the dark one wanted in
It felt so hard to resist the sin
And as it clawed my life to shreds
My heart was broken, my soul was dead

But even when he tore me apart
You still possessed my Heart
My mind was strong and my motives right
But my willpower lost me the fight

After the sin had taken its tole
I sought your love to mend my soul
My life was cleansed and I was walking with you
And now it's clear what I'm to do.

The sin has returned and tried to come in
But when with you I shall always win
As the struggles had fled along with the strife
I could focus on how to live my life

My mind is pure and my motives, true
Now I live to glorify you
I discover my passions, and my talents too
I know that these are gifts from you.

I am now prepared for the enemy's attack
For the Holy Spirit I no longer lack
If my sin presents itself again
I will try my best to refrain

My Shield is thick and my Sword is broad
For I am now a Man of God

Who Am I?

Throughout my life I have struggled with many things. The three main sins that I have struggled with are Lust, Laziness, and Lying. The three L's. These sins had tore my life apart for years. I could feel my relationship with Christ thinning over time. I was tired and I couldn't carry on. But I finally repented and got my life back in order. As many of you may know, I gave my testimony back in January at SHIFT Students at CCV. From that point on, I was living for God. I was trying my hardest to read my Bible every night, I was doing all of my homework, and the three L's could no longer rule my life. And as God was teaching me new things, and showing me how to become a fully devoted follower I felt a strange feeling. A feeling that was new to me. That feeling was freedom. I felt so happy to be rid of the sin that I felt it impossible to conceal my happiness.

It was a freedom that I had acquired through my lack of self-consciousness. I didn't care about anything but my relationship with God.  And since I was no longer held to the standards of my peers, I was able to discover who I really am. And as the days go by I learn new things about myself. I discover joy, and compassion in my life that wasn't there before. I wasn't filled with resentment towards others, but rather acceptance. With this new freedom I had a more clear mind, and I felt it easier to read and write. I discovered passions that had been limited due to my embarrassment. I felt like I knew who I was, and God knew who I was, and that was all that mattered. I was ready to go out into the world with a more responsible attitude, faithful heart, and positive outlook on life.

I am so happy with where I am at in regards to my relationship with Christ that I felt it necessary to write this blog. God is the King of My Life. God is the Light that Motivates Me. And God is the Answer to my Problems. For all of you that are struggling with Sin, and are being held down by the enemy's razor sharp talons, please listen to me. You will never achieve happiness unless you run to God. If you allow the Holy Spirit into your life, he will heal your wounds and restore peace to your soul. You are betraying yourself when you refuse to seek the Lord. So just take the happiness, God offers it to you daily.
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